Wednesday, February 27, 2008

contradict yourself


miniature dragons
purple tigers
frightening butterflies
condoling monsters
frozen lava
melted desks
solid skies
liquid fields
baby blue oranges
self-sufficient newborns
amazing boredom
apathetic drama
a relationship between rivals
the hydrophobe swimming the seven seas
create your own hipocrite
contradict your convictions
create tenuous expectations.
make none of it your own.

Make the Best of It?


so i'm pretty tired of everything.
living within a nonexistent village
[yes, its pretty much nonexistent with not even 60 people in town]
not getting into bethel whenever i want to
trying to figure out how I'm going to get enough sleep
and dealing with people too obsessed with creating multiple dramatic scenes.
today isn't a good day.
i guess you can kind of tell.
well probably not.
i feel way out of it
careless.
apathetic.
I'm so sleepy.

I slept all day yesterday.
I felt sick.
I didn't go to ball practice.
I woke up before nine (pm)
and couldn't get back to sleep afterwards.
dumb.
I feel like yuck muck today.
I got stuck on my math quiz.
It took me more than an hour to figure out how i was going to solve number three.
and i finally found that the answer was way too easy.
which made me feel pretty... what's the word... not smart?
lol.
a few things to make today a little better [i guess]
my cousin is supposed to come over today
I haven't seen her in forever.
my mom is probably going to get more vanilla ice cream today
so ill probably be able to have plenty of banana milkshakes today :)
Im going to ball practice
that means i get to work out
yee haw?
I won't have homework.
i think.
aand. what else. i did laundry yesterday
so clean clothes for me,
whoo!
ahah.
funny.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Self Reflecting

 Im Faith.
people tend to assume that since that's my name, I'm all into in-your-face Christianity. It gets pretty frustrating. I actually went through an atheist phase while I was in Junior High just to prove all of the stereotypes wrong::: Just Because I'm Faith doesn't mean I'm ms. goody-two-shoes. 
I'm really into sports. So much so that some of my muscle tends to freak people out
[my calves are huge, and my baby br
other thinks that my dad stuck plates in them whenever i flex them]
my dad says i have "bristol legs" [great grandparents last names]
I prefer the straightforward stuff
I like to think that I simply state facts
I'm not going to say anything that purposely makes you look stupid,
but I will mention all of my accomplishments and everything that I'm proud of
[in this case, my muscle :)]
Although I'm way into working out, I'm more of a girly girl than you would expect.
I love skirts and Dresses, I love makeup and shopping, and i absolutely love using high heels.
although I don't really get the chance to use heels or skirts since I live in a nonexistent village.
I'm supposed to be a sophomor
e, although all of my reading writing and math classes are in the 11th and 12th grade levels, so i pretty much just consider myself halfway to being a junior.
I'm working towards graduating next year.
I keep on changing my mind about what i want to go to college for
but one thing's for sure: i want to at least minor in becoming a math teacher.
Right now i'm looking into majoring in geophysics and studying geothermal energy, but who knows about whether or not that's going to change pretty soon.
I almost forgot to tell you that i'm 16. I'm pretty proud of that fact too... although i haven't even got my driver's permit yet.
I'm not full Yup'ik, or full German or French... I'm a little bit of everything i guess. Half Yup'ik with some russian here, some German there, and the faintest touch of French over there.
It gets pretty frustrating really, because when i'm in alaska, everyone thinks im full white, but while im in the lower 48, everyone else thinks im pure asian. talk about awkward. =D
I've got two amazing dogs -- Howler(she's a chick, not a dude) and Sir Lenny -- who are both huskies, one a malamute and one a siberian.

my brothers and i get along
 amazingly well. i like to think that im the peacemaker in my family, since im in the absolute middle. [the oldest of 3 kids, the youngest of 3 "adults" =D]
I tend to get carried away with descriptions, i've noticed. 
most of my blogs always end up in endless rambles and everything. it tends to annoy me a lot of the time. Anyway I've Pretty much run out of stuff to talk about. this is me, if you don't like it then deal with it. which reminds me - I'm not into mind games. just cut the junk and get to the point :)

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