Bitch, Please.

So my year;
Like I predicted, nothing is boding well.
I started off on December 31st by ramming in the hood on my daewoo
followed that with losing my wallet, which means no ID, no debit cards, no cash, no anything
didn't get the raise that I was promised, and because I lost my cash, was short on my rent
and our pipes clogged up so we weren't able to use the drains whatsoever

but hey
I fixed my car
I got a new ID
ordered new cards
arranged a payment method for my rent
and the clog is fixed

So yeah,
this year is coming up with some pretty shitty road blocks
but I guess you could say I'm a pretty handy construction worker

Bring it on, 2013
Because it's going to take a lot more than a few ditches to break me.

Ms. Brightside

I'm finally almost over you
and you're idiotic version of a break-up
almost at that point where I'm about to make a move-on
you would have thought it'd take longer
but bitch,
I'm Over It.

Resolution Number One

My wallet continues to elude me
and my throat has resorted to torturing me.

But, today is a pretty okay day.
I still need to get cash
I still need something for my throat
and I still need a new ID
But I'm up for dealing with all of that.

I get Rory tomorrow.
This momma is pretty hella excited =]
He's on his way to learning to crawl,
get's on all fours, and even made a lunge forward today <3
That kid is going to be ten times more of a handful once he's figured that all out
ButI'mStillSoExcited!

Anyway. My Update.
I plan on quitting smoking.
I'll admit I'm not quite excited
But. I don't think that it helps settle these mood swings.
And I need to quit being broke.

So here's to my belated New Years resolution.
I'm not looking forward to the next week, but what's one week compared to fifty-two right.

Now for a more positive resolution that I can look forward to?
I still haven't figured one out yet.
But I'll get there.

Happy Motha' Fuckin' New Year, Bitches

My New Year's Prediction was Right.

I lost my wallet. How grand. I predicted this bullshit didn't I. Damn bad omens.

Schizo

When you're getting everything on track
You're on good terms with everyone who matters
You know what you want and where you're going
You're beginning to accept what's already been done
and You're beginning to move past that

That's when life is supposed to be great... Isn't it?
That's when you're supposed to have it all figured out... Right?

So why do I get the feeling
more than should be so
that I simply don't know myself anymore

I feel as if I'm hiding something from myself
and That part of me that's doing the hiding;
It's hideously depressed.

I feel like somewhere amidst all of these drastic life changes
I've lost myself

How is that even supposed to be possible?
Your sense of being is the only thing that you're supposed to rely on

and When you've lost that
that Identity
that Security
that simple sense of knowing who you Are
Then what do you have, really?

In an attempt to remain honest with myself,
My self has lost it's honesty with me.

All of this,
it's just one big scramble to figure myself out
a scramble that really just doesn't want to work itself out right now.
a scramble that's hitting me pretty hard.

Quit hiding shit from yourself Faith.
I'm starting to thing you're crazy.
Fuck Off.
Bitch.

Mood Swings

I've been really moody lately.
and there's really no reason to explain why.
I find it very frustrating.
Which really doesn't help.

I feel like I've tried everything:
Spending time with family;
Spending time with friends;
Spending time alone;
All of it is just not working.

A little help here?
Just make the thoughts go away,
Take away all of the feeling
and make it all go numb.
Then maybe we could finally make some progress.

Help me out.
Never mind. Fuck off.
Shit.

Big Bang

Happy Belated New Years Everyone!
I welcomed my New Years with a Big Bang. Quite fun, quite fun.
my coworker and I went out to celebrate, and I danced from ten at night 'till five in the morning. It was definitely a blast.
The parts for my little daewoo are ready to be picked up, so pretty soon my car shall go from looking like this:

To looking like the pretty little baby she was in the first place.
best part? either my dad and my brother will fix it while I'm at work, or I'm going to be learning how to replace a hood myself.
Um. cool.

Have a good night all
and to all a good night